"There is no other peace better than the one given by the spirit."
Today, was another ordinary day of wasting precious time with online chaos. But unlike any other day, we attended Saturday mass. Sometimes I don't know why I go to mass. Is it because my family is going or is it because I really want to listen to His word?
I'm a really weird introvert-extrovert to my friends only kind of person and I don't like socializing at all. Going to mass required smiling and halfheartedly saying peace be with you. I didn't know these people for crying out loud. But in this particular homily, in this particular day where the sun grew hotter than usual I felt calm and at peace. I knew He was there. He was there and my Angel scared the devil away. I listened to the Homily and by every word felt it like it was a part of me. The Father said that Jesus is all around us. He's in the air, he's in the flowers that we smell, the sun that is asking too much attention with it's scourging rays or even the person right next to you, we just had to recognize him. I closed my eyes and felt it. Sometimes I wish I was in the comfort of my home, lying down and reading the posts on the internet/ Facebook just reposting stuff and laughing at hilarious shenanigans. But in that day I genuinely smiled. I said to myself "Why does He give me this peace that I don't deserve?". He knows what I want that I don't have to say it. He knows his children too well. Maybe this week I got too caught up in all my worries and doubts that I had to have this peace right here. That I had to go today to this mass and hear Him and assure me that everything will be fine. He gave me discernment to know and understand. I'm a little bratty spoiled child then. But my Father doesn't care. He loves me regardless. But I know the time will come when I'll be stronger and be a true servant.
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